No. Of course not. I haven’t slept in close to a week. I’m so exhausted and stressed out, my whole body hurts from it. On top of everything else, I haven’t had any real time with Lover in a few days, and I’m missing him pretty badly. I need a hug.

I turned in papers to hopefully get health insurance soon. I hope I get approved – I really need insurance badly. I need to go to the dentist like, 3 months ago. My teeth are rotting out of my face and they hurt more than anything I’ve ever felt before. I also need to get new glasses, a doctor to help control my moods/anxiety, and hopefully a pain management doctor to get my back fixed.

I’m trying not to get my hopes up. One of the papers that was required was a rent receipt, which my landlord refuses to give because she’s a petty cunt. [Windows are open, TV/Stereo is too loud, etc.] I had to write a letter stating that I couldn’t get it and include it with my application, so hopefully that covers it. I don’t want to get excited though.

I’m shot, man. I need some fucking sleep. I have to figure out how to make this happen, cause I’m going to go really go insane soon.