I’ve been feeling a little better as the days pass by, but last night was absolutely awful. Lover came over and he took me to get McDonald’s for dinner. We came back to the house and lied down to watch some television. Around 11, my stomach started turning for no reason and I had to run to the bathroom to vomit. I came back to the bedroom afterward, and Lover left at midnight. As soon as he moved the bed, I had to vomit again.

This trend proceeded every 5-30 minutes until 12 o’clock this afternoon. By the third time, I didn’t have anything in my stomach, so it was just wrenching pain, egg-yolk like bile, and blood for the remainder of the night/morning. I think McDonald’s gave me food poisoning. I highly doubt Methadone withdrawal is going to start over a week after I stopped taking them…

I didn’t sleep at all. I finally dozed off around 1 until 2:30ish, but I woke up with my whole body in spasms and the worst indigestion I’ve ever had in my life. I was supposed to take a shower and get ready to go to the store and the bar with Lover tonight, but I lied back town for two hours instead. I can’t stand up long enough to take a shower, honestly. I feel so gross.

Thankfully Lover is super understanding. He keeps asking how I’m doing and said that after we go to the store, he’d rather just come back and cook me dinner. I told him I wasn’t ready for food yet, and he said we’ll just come back here and figure out what we want to do for the rest of the night instead. I asked if he was going to be upset with me for ruining plans, to which he replied, “Oh, please.” Heh.

So I made my way into some of my ‘fat jeans’ (they’re most comfy) and a big t-shirt, and I threw my hair up in a hairband. Now I’m just waiting for Lover to get here so we can run to the store, even though I really don’t feel like it. I have to, though. Romeo is out of food and kitty litter. I don’t know if we’ll end up doing anything afterward – I’m kind of torn whether I want to or not. I can’t lie in bed and get comfortable with my whole body in spasms, but I feel like complete crap and don’t want to be out in public.